POV: ANA

Hey, let me introduce myself. My name is Ana. And honey, you’re lucky I found you. Lets pause for a second and take a moment to check you out in the mirror. What do you see? Because all I see is fat.

You are fat, worthless, and honestly unlovable if you’re going to look like that. That is why I am here to help you change.

Have you ever heard of a thigh gap? And do you think its okay to be able to peel fat off your hips because honestly, that’s disgusting. Man, you are so lucky you have me now. I am going to be your best friend and I am going to change your life. I cannot believe you go out in public looking like THIS!

Thank god i am here to help. Lets start with food. Are you actually going to eat THAT?

I mean it’s your body, so do what you want, but if you want to be perfect I would have something else.

Good girl, put it down, pick something new. You don’t need that food… or you know what? I actually do not even think you are hungry at all.

Come on; follow me out of the kitchen. Lets find something to do to distract from the hunger.

Still hungry you say? Wow I should have known you were even more pathetic than I thought. This is why you have no friends. You have no strength or self-discipline. But fine, do what you want. Go eat that food. You’ll come crying back to me sooner or later.

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Hm, you seem a upset laying on the ground like that. You FATASS. Was the food really worth it because look at you now. You’re even more DISGUSTING. I am embarrassed to know you. Maybe I should just leave now. I mean, everyone else leaves, right? Maybe now you know why.

Oh wait…what’s that? You need me? Yeah hun, you’re right so lets start listening to me from now on.

Luckily I know how to get rid of what you ate. I have three choices: throw up, swallow laxatives, or work out until you pass out. Although… looking at you, maybe you should work out until you pass out anyway and throw up/take laxatives. Everything helps.

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Days, weeks, months have gone by and wow you’re looking great.

I’m so proud of what I have created.

Your mom called, she invited you over to dinner, but I of course turned her down. I used that excuse about already having plans with someone else. This is the 5th dinner in a row we have missed! I am so impressed with what your strength.

It’s okay that you want to sleep all the time. I would rather have you working out, but at least when you’re asleep you cant eat.

You know what? I am almost proud of you. But don’t get too happy yet, because there is still a long way to go.

Your ribs stick out nice, but they can stick out further. I can wrap my fingers around your arm, but it needs to be looser. And don’t get me started on the collarbones. Just because you lost weight doesn’t mean its over yet. You don’t know this yet, but you won’t be done with me until you’re just a pile of bones. I am your escort to death.

So come on, lets bundle up the layers; don’t let them see your secret. You’re doing so great. But, if you don’t listen to me, I will leave. I will leave you and no one will love you. Remember, without me you’re nothing. Without me you’re worthless. We are best friends. You mustn’t disappoint me. I am so excited to see how perfect I can make you.

XOXO,

ana

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One thought on “POV: ANA

  1. Olivia you are strong don’t listen to Ana. We want you and love you if you listen to Ana she will destroy you. If any thing happened to you it would destroy us all. We need you in our lives we want you healthy and happy. You have a great life ahead of you. I want to see you teach and marry some day and maybe have your own family. Don’t let Ana destroy she is just a voice in your head block her put on some music or call me and we’ll talk no matter how late it is. Love you very much

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