Wow, we sure have been through a lot this past decade. From petty injuries, some major surgeries, and well from the poor way I have been treating you. I want to say sorry to you body. I am sorry that I have taken you for granted. I am sorry that I have put so much hate and pain towards you. I am sorry for all the laxatives, for depriving you of food and water, pushing you to the point of passing out and collapsing. i’m sorry for breaking your skin and turning you into a dead girl walking. You have been nothing but good to me. You provide me long legs for running and dancing. You give me arms so I can hold those dear to me. You give me a heart beat so I can live every day to the fullest.
But I haven’t been treating you well. Now we are both suffering. If I could go back and change things I would. I remember we always had that goal to play collegiate soccer- too bad we were too malnourished to properly train. You do not deserve this pain I have put you through. So many people would be so thankful to have you, body. I have been taking you for granted and I hope you can forgive me for this.
I promise I am trying to change. I am trying to give you the fuel you need. I am trying to take care of you so we don’t keep crumbling and breaking. I love you body. It took me awhile to realize this, but I really do. You and me are a team. It’s time I start playing my part.
I can’t promise that this is going to be a quick and easy recovery, but I can promise that everyday I will do better to get better. I do not want us to suffer anymore.
With my deepest condolences and greatest amounts of love,